We feel the void nearly every day of our lives. This unending love for my spouse and my daughter for her daddy.
I still believe that he is a great man, he lost who he was and made himself into someone I no longer recognize. I loved the man who treasured me and took care of me as his princess. I do not want the man he became into our life. I wonder if he likes who he is now.
We will always love you my spouse and wish only the best life has to offer you.
I came across a picture of my spouse on one of his social pages and hun, you just dont look healthy or happy. I wonder what you were searching for when you left us? You were not happy with us or with yourself apparently. You took the unhappiness with you. All I wanted for you was for you to find happiness and peace.
Proverbs 16:20 He that handles a matter wisely shall find good: and whoever trusts in the LORD, happy is he.
Psalms 37:4 Delight yourself also in the LORD: and he shall give you the desires of your heart.
Proverbs 14:13 Even in laughter the heart is sorrowful; and the end of that mirth is heaviness.
Psalms 34:14 Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.
Psalms 119:165 Great peace have they which love your law: and nothing shall offend them.
Romans 8:6 For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.
Still have not heard from my daughters father, we still think about him everyday of our lives. Hoping he is healthy and happy. We miss you everyday. I also talked to my friend about happiness and we agreed you have to bring your happiness with you. It is not from your current location, or circumstances that make you happy or unhappy. Happiness is a state of mind.
ReplyDeleteWe still miss you husband of mine. Where did you go? How long will you be gone? When will you be well enough? My friends are praying for a husband for me, but I want nothing to do with it. Maybe someday I could wrap my head around it, but not now. Life is good even if there are days of loneliness. We love you husband and father. We are still here, doing what we have to in order to survive.
ReplyDeleteWe are making progress, we have found an updated address for my deadbeat. He will be found, we have the agency looking for him now. They will not let him get away. I have found pictures of him on the internet that showed him overseas and with a new family. He forgot about us and now he will be reminded daily that we still exist. He is not the same person that I once knew. He doesnt look healthy or happy either. My daughter and I are very happy and have an amazing life with friends and family who love us. We have joy unspeakable and peace in our lives. We are two very blessed ladies.
ReplyDeleteMy spouse you have touched base with us and I am grateful to see that you are ok. We still miss you daily and think of you just as much. My friends have called you a deadbeat, a jerk, stupid. I cannot call you names, even in the last post I did. The name was because that is what a father is called that cannot care for their child. They tell me to just toss you aside as you have done to us. Mae has grown up without your strong arms to wrap around her, she has longed for you to return for many years. Yet you have not come back to us.
ReplyDeleteI realize that you want nothing to do with the L-rd and that is why you couldnt be around us. However, it doesnt matter what you think. A truth is a truth and a lie is a lie.
No matter if you believe the lie or disbelieve a truth. It does not change that facts.
The references in scripture of what is going to happen to the world, will happen and then where will you be then? It maybe just too late for you to believe the truth. You can still continue to hate the truth, however
I would like to believe that there is more to this horrible, corrupt world and think that there has to be a reward for all this suffering.
I would prefer to live in a world that is full of kindness, generosity and understanding.
To live like this on earth is rare and unusual although this is how I chose to live my life daily.
You have found us again and you are speaking to us. My heart aches because I love you so much, we have missed you every single day of our lives. You are intelligent, funny, handsome, interesting, hardworking, loves your family. When will you come home? Please make my heart stop hurting. I cannot wait another day, it has been too long and we are not girls who like to be alone. You used to do so much for me, I never had to nag you to help me with tasks around the house. I deep down believed you loved me.
ReplyDeleteI didnt intentionally do something to cause you to hate me, or want to run away from me from us.
My brain has been numb to all the grief that I endured during our marriage the abuse for this girl who loves people, was the cruelest form of rejection. I need people around me all the time.
However, upon your return, believe me I need to look out for Mae's heart. You have hurt her deeply and I do not want a part time father again. Can you, will you be able to pull it together for her? We have to have ground rules, you decide how and what you are willing to do for her? Please do not break her heart again, she might not recover this time.