Friday, July 11, 2014

The loneliness and pain of loss

I am the youngest in my family, so I have come to the conclusion that I will have to deal with more deaths and funerals as an unwillingly participant.

My mother left us last year and now my moms sister this year. My aunt, she was healthy and strong, and she left us suddenly. It just seems like a hazy dream, like this is not really happening. I felt numb for several days afterwards and have not been able to sleep.

My aunt was going to join us on our journey and we were going to share with her about our upcoming travels. I just called her maybe two weeks ago. She sounded fine. I will miss her dearly. My Grandmother, my aunts and my mother are amazing women who lived through the Great Depression and came out at the end of their lives full of joy, full of life and love for others.

They had enormous blessings in their lives. Their families which they treasured next to their love for the L-rd.

The pains that are left behind by a life not fulfilled. We here, the family members who were left behind still desired more time with the ones we loved. I don't believe when there is this kind of love between family members that the hole in my heart because my mom and aunt are not with us anymore, can really feel whole again, until the L-rd returns to take His saints home.

My prayer will be: Please L-rd return quickly and reunite me with my family. Until that time, give each one of my family members a hug for me.

I will always miss you Mom and Aunt Elsie.


Mae learning how to price socks at my Aunt's space at the Flea Market. 
Watching all day Disney at my Aunt's house. 

There is my Aunt in the background with the pink shirt. So blessed to have spent that time with her last summer. 
Going to Brenda's house in my Aunt's fancy car. 

Eating Dinner out with my aunt Elsie and daughter. 

My Mom May and My Daughter Mae. They look happy. 


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